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Name: Maggie Moo
Birthday: 4/29/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: conspiracy theorist, anime, nutrition, drug therapy
Expertise: art, photography, english, natural foods
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Member Since:
3/9/2005
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| So I'm pretty much 90% sure that I want to break up with my boyfriend and go back to MD where I had a job. However, I will give him until I have my license to start showing me that he's a genuine person. Right now, he's proved to me that he's typical pot head who doesn't care for anyone else and doesn't take into consideration what I want to do. All he does is sit around and watch T.V., shot guns, and get high. When we have the opportunity to go do something, God forbid he ever wants to take me anywhere. He told me he'd rather spend money on pot and about 100$ of ammo each week than spend a little bit of money on piercings, which was the agreement that I came back for. He can't even give me that one tiny thing? That is all I'm asking? Is that really some huge fucking deal to just take me to get piercings? He can waste money on ammo, then he can keep his promise.
I'm fucking sick of this shit. And I don't appreciate his mom's smart ass comments about how I look either. I don't do anything wrong, and of course, everyone has to judge someone according to if they have black hair, dreads, or a nose ring. I hate people like that. It's bullshit: something I don't want to be around.
All this shit just bottled up inside me makes me want to scream and punch walls until all my knuckles are bloody and bruised. I'm so sick of it. I'm tired of thinking certain people actually care. And I'm sick of losing the people I care about most. If this is life, I DON"T WANT ANY PART OF IT.
Maybe my Dad is right. I"m just some loser no life nobody. I don't have anything to show for myself, I don't even think I have my sanity right now. I'm going crazier with every hour passing. I can't take this shit. I can't. Its too much. It is just like when I wasn't allowed to go anywhere because of my parents kept me locked inside, otherwards they'd yell and scream and threaten me all the time and tell me how worthless I was. Except, I think I'm living up to what they think of me, nothing.
Maybe I'm just such a loser that I can't believe how pathetic I really am. Considering if I came to reality that I'm a loser, I'd probably hurt myself horribly.
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| Why wouldn't a dude fuck around on a girl? For one, any common guy, which is all of them with the exception of maybe 3 I know of (whom chicks wouldn't fuck) maybe won't fuck around.
In all reality (this doesn't upset me), I know the cold hard facts. My boyfriend is a 22 year old male, he's done a lot of drugs and can go to bars. For two weeks in the summer all he did was drink and party. And I'm supposed to believe that for the past 3 or so years he hasn't fucked a few chicks? I'm supposed to believe that he didn't fuck one a week or so in Richmond? Any guy I know of, without hesitation would fuck some chick. Rodney would so fuck a perfect looking girl, smart, etc... someone like the chick he's had the hots for forever, Katlin.
This is why, I'm not going to stay in this relationship, or any relationship for too long and waste my life. I'm 18, I don't want to get married, I want nothing to do with kids, and guys are full of shit and always cheat. So, why would I stick around in a relationship for long? Oh, right, unless I was a stupid bitch. I'm not a stupid bitch. I'm pretty damn sure what he has done over the summer and the past few years. I'm convinced of it.
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| For some reason, I'm just worried I'm losing friendship with Emmy.
Got my snakebites done. Asked about a dragon sleeve at Explosive Tatto, it is anywhere from 2,000$-5000$ not including tip, which is usually expensive.
X.x Living with the boyfriend.
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| I don't want a realtionship. I fucking hate it, I don't want anything to do with it. I hate the fact each time I meet a dude, it ends up too flirtacious. Then, I can't talk to them anymore. I don't want to get close to anyone. I've got too much shit going on. I feel like I'm using my boyfriend. I'll probably just leave him. I feel like shit.
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